The Fear of Letting Go by Sarra Cannon

Author:Sarra Cannon [Cannon, Sarra]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Christmas Love Story, New Adult Romance, Christmas Romance, Small-town Romance, NA contemporary romance, College romance, Womens Fiction
ISBN: 9781624210341
Goodreads: 23272512
Publisher: Dead River Books
Published: 2014-11-07T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twenty-Four

Jenna

I am counting the hours until I can clock out and head back to Preston's. I owe him a serious apology. I feel ridiculous for storming over there like a child, complaining about a gift, but I feel so much better after he told me his reasons for sending it.

I completely overreacted, but seeing that dress made me feel like I'm living my mother's life all over again. That's not his fault, though, so why did I lash out at him? What is wrong with me?

I guess in the end, I've been really proud of myself for making it work on my own here in Fairhope. I don't want him to swoop in like some fairy god-boyfriend and suddenly start taking care of me. I saw how that worked out for my mom, when she started her affairs with the rich guys she used to work for. It was nothing but trouble for all of us involved.

Part of me wants to believe the differences in our finances aren't important, but at the same time, it's a real issue for me. We come from completely different worlds. How can I possibly expect him to understand what it's like to be worried about where your next meal will come from? That's not even something that's registered on his things-to-consider in his entire life, while for me, it was an every-day concern growing up. Hell, who am I kidding? Sometimes it still is.

So, tonight we're going to talk about it.

Something I've been dreading since the moment his lips first touched mine. I don't want him to know how difficult things are for me sometimes, or where I came from. I'm scared he'll either feel sorry for me, or try to fix me. Both would be horrible and embarrassing beyond belief. I don't want him to take care of me or buy me things, and I'm afraid once he really knows what kind of family I come from, he'll go running for the hills.

Of course, if he does, then at least I'll know what kind of guy he really is and what he finds important.

He says he's looking for someone different, but what if it's only temporary? What if he's just going through some rebellious phase, trying it out for a change to get away from the types of women he's been dating? If that's the way it is, I know it will only be a matter of time before dating the girl from the wrong side of the tracks loses its novelty and he's falling right back into the arms of someone more his type.

Then where will I be?

I finish filling the sweet teas for Table 6 and load them up on my tRob. I need to get him out of my head for the next few hours so I don't end up dumping an entire tRob full of drinks on someone's head. Maria is a forgiving boss, but she's already been looking at me funny all evening. I know I'm not

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